I sit in the hot tub late at night.. and look up.. I look long enough so that “Holy Shit, look at how many stars there are!” thing happens.. and it reminds me.. of just how unimportant I am.. how silly my little problems are.. and of how we’re all just making this up as we go.
There is beauty in not being important (I just made that up) and in knowing that we know we don’t know much of anything. The universe is so big that we don’t know what ‘big’ means.. if it’s infinite then that doesn’t make any sense ..and if it had a start, well THAT really messes things up! We don’t know THE biggest things about the existence of our universe.. we don’t know how life started or what life really is.. we especially don’t know how a baby spider who gets blown away from it’s parents still knows instinctively how to blow it’s house out of it’s ass.. so.. soooo… I don’t know.
Because we don’t know, and because we, well speaking for myself- I am not important in the least.. because of that I believe we get to make up what we think is important. We get to create “important”.. from that we get to create what “make a difference” means. And, that’s the life we get to lead. I have found that I am MORE dedicated to living that made up life more intentionally than any life someone else tells me I “should” be living.
And now, since what I have to say has NO significance what-so-ever, I have a blog..
Oct 2 2012